Meditation of Today

My train of thought is quite scrambled due to the constant ring of "cancel all thoughts" running rampant in my skull. I'm preparing for something yet falling completely stagnant. My heart yearns for something...else. But what of my options does it truly desire? Am I lost in the isolation and forgetting the sky above me is vast or is this the reality of my existence eternally? From desires to love to reminders of time's limitations I find myself angry and with a fleeing heart. With every subtle notion of vulnerability leaked into space I coil into myself and wish not only nothing more to be let out but to retrieve that which has already been released. Slight side comments are played endlessly in my mind as I try to focus on whatever I am trying to focus on. Was it truth? Was it intentional? Does it carry hidden meaning? Am I just now picking up on a message being sent underneath joking smiles and jocular diction? Or am I once again digging into empty soil in search for roots that do not exist. Cancel all thoughts. Cancel all thoughts. Agh the pain of having to pull myself back to reality only makes me yearn more for the beyond. Perhaps infatuation has once again reared its deceptive head into my corner. Have I yet learned anything from my past romantic failures? Nevermore, it is time to flee. Off into the trees and between creeks and streams I run. Run from my thoughts until someone willing decides to chase after me and follow into the wild. Best of luck to those who may try and are destined to fail. For I am an uncatchable sprint, lost in translation and destined for a world that as yet to exist presently and carry a love that seems impossible to reciprocate.